Wednesday, August 15, 2012

He's no you.
I think I'm gonna let him go.
No one compares to you.
I care a lot about you...

You have my life in your hands.
I'm following you, Lord.
A dear friend of mine has been talking about you lately and now I'm interested.
I want you to lead me down the right paths for the rest of my life.
I give my life to you, Jesus. 

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Wishes & Wants.

I wish you could see this side of me.
The side of me that no one has ever seen before.
I want to tell you everything about me but I can't.
Reliving everything just hurts way too bad.
I wish I could be open with you.
I wish I could be close to you.
I want so bad to be there for you.
I wish I was as strong as you are.
I don't know how much longer I can hold all of this in.
Tonight your memory burns like a fire
With every one it grows higher and higher. 


4 hours.
One four hour conversation and I knew.
I knew that we had more in common than anyone in the world.
You are beautiful.
And so is your soul.
You may have flaws but I love every single one of them.
I don't want to scare you away with my feelings so I'm holding back...
I feel bad because you didn't hold anything back from me so why should I hold back from you?
I want to know what makes you smile.
I want to know what makes you cry.
I want to know what it feels like to look at you as if you're my knight in shining armor.
When I look at you, I get this funny feeling in the pit of my stomach.
4 hours.
One four hour conversation and I knew... 

Friday, August 26, 2011


Just because I don't conform to society doesn't mean I'm weird or gross. So seriously get off your high horse and leave me the hell alone.

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Wellllllll .

I guess I'm just weird... Well not weird. I'm Limited Edition. I like that. It has a certain ring to it don't you think? Anyways, Life is good. It really is. If life had a pause button it would be on right now, but then again I would totally abuse that privilege. Life is good. End of story.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Nobody puts Baby in a corner.

"I want John Cusack holding a boombox outside my window. I wanna ride off on a lawnmower with Patrick Dempsey. I want Jake from Sixteen Candles waiting outside the church for me. I want Judd Nelson thrusting his fist into the air because he knows he got me. Just once I want my life to be like an 80's movie. But no, no, John Hughes did not direct my life"

But then again, there's that line between fantasy and reality.
Honestly, all I really want is love.
Being me is a lot harder than you think. You may think that I have it all together. You may think I have no emotions so I don't get hurt or confused or anything like that. My life is more complicated than you think. Here's the low down. Walking down the hall -- Girls: "Omg. She's such a slut." Guys: "Can I get your number?" <----- constantly. Its so degrading. Just because I like to meet new people and I smile and laugh a lot that some how makes me a prostitute? I lost two of my best friends this year. It was absolutely the most hardest thing I've ever gone through. They played "I Won't Let Go by Rascal Flatts" at their memorial. Every time I hear this song I start crying. I still have their numbers in my phone. Not a day goes by that I don't think about them. Its so hard to go through just one day dealing with all the inconsiderate people and also mourn the loss of your two friends. I guess its all just making me stronger. Its making me a better person. Its telling me to cherish the people you have in your life. To thank all the people that have put you down cause they made you into the person you are today. To look around and just say thanks. All I really want is for someone to care and say they understand. That's all. Is that really too much to ask for?

"Just once I want my life to be like an 80's movie."